Christians be Vigilant

Dear fellow alwways Christians be Vigilant, as the enemy is suttle when it suits his purpose

This is a “Warning” which I was going to use a a title, but chenged my mind

I am in earnest reporting this event from my own recent experience, when I was totally off guard, just casually looking onlne

When a small item popped up about Jenny Agutter, which stirred up a long forgotten memory of her in a film called “Walkabout”

Which aroused my curiosity enough to search for the film, in which she featured brifly topless and later on in a long distance shot full nude

Even thoough this would be considered tame be today’s Standards, that memory was enough to entice me towards indulging in the sinful act of lust

Thankfully the Holy Spirit was stronger and I turn away from the temptation, and the Holy Spirit lead me to a rebuking video

Praise the Lord!

 

 

 

Scrooge Tells His Story

I Ebenezer Scrooge the wretched man of this story and the events that change my life so completely, I freely praise that day and I shall be grateful for the rest of my days

As I now retell my story to my every growing adopted family, it helps to remind me what a truly lost soul I had become

Many years have past since that fateful night when I was visited by those three spirits, foretold by my old dead partner Jacob Marley who appeared in ghostly form, bound by many heavy and sturdy chains

That night I refused to believe that it was he, and dismissed his warning, but even so his words troubled my mind so much that I was unable to sleep

I still shudder even now just thinking about that night of revaluation, when the truth of my past life was revealed to me by all three spirits

Each spirit with a different part of my life to transport me into, with the last spirit of the Christmas yet to come, being the spirit I feared the most

Until that night I had no idea how miserly I had become,and what lonesome and miserable life I had encased myself into, by snubbing even my only living relation, which I came to regret later on

My nephew, the only child of my dear sister who died in his birth, in my selfishness I blame him for her death

My biggest regret of my past was allowing my covetousness of money to hard my heart and replace the love of a fine and dear young lady, who I had vowed to love for eternity, it saddens me that I fail to keep that vow

Enough of my wallowing in self-pity, I rejoice in my new life, this second chance I was given

The joy of a full family life and friendship I now have, could never be replace by any amount of gold or silver

God forbid that I should ever revert to that old mean money grasping miser, I would rather be taken from this life, even as happy as I am than become old self again

The reason behind this addition to this famous story

I may have never been a miser, but a sinner. Yes indeed

A wretched sinner in desperate need of salvation, like Scrooge unaware just how hard hearted towards God I had become

As a forgiven sinner, who through God’s grace is “born again “I would rather be taken from this life, even as happy and at peace as I am than become old self again”

Renewed

Not by works of righteousness which we did ourselves, but in the measure of his mercy, he gave us salvation, through the washing of the new birth and the giving of new life in the Holy Spirit

Since the time is speeding along toward Christmas and the end of this year of 2019

I began to ponder about just how much Jesus has done for me, not only renewed me but also continuing to support me through addiction

I am unsure how long ago it was when “I surrender all” including my “free will” to Him as I often failed to control my desires

Only then did I begin to know the wonderful experience of peace and freedom He has given me and the ongoing support even when the old self stirs into rekindled flames fanned by the Whisperer

I know that I never want to allow myself back into that dark place of self-indulgence, for it was rotting my mind and stifling my creative thoughts

Along with dragging me further away from Jesus, my first love (not in a sexual or normal human way) but in a spiritual sense

From my youth of school days, I loved hearing the stories about Jesus and He became so real I could visualize Him in my mind’s eye

Even years later when I hear the words He spoke I knew His voice and never doubted Him

As many of you may know our rebellious nature can distract us and vanity will lead us astray, so it was in my life, but Praise the Lord for He is a caring Shepard who searches for His lost sheep, such as me

False Freedom

I have over the years watched many videos, some with those who claim to have been a Christian and then for assorted reasons “Broken free” their words

They attract many comments from others who have chosen what I call a false freedom

So who am I that I dare to call their seemingly new freedom false?

I am someone who had thought I was a Christian, not because of my parents although they were married in a church along with marriage vows

But rather through Sunday school attendance (which I was told about later on in my life

Sometime later when attending a local school, where they read passages from the Bible every morning along with

I have over the years watched many videos, some with those who claim to have been a Christian and then for assorted reasons “Broken free” their words

They attract many comments from others who have chosen what I call a false freedom

So who am I that I dare to call their seemingly new freedom false?

I am someone who had thought I was a Christian, not because of my parents although they were married in a church along with marriage vows

But rather through Sunday school attendance (which I was told about later on in my life

Sometime later when attending a local school, where they read passages from the Bible every morning along with Christian Hymns

In those days I had no reason to doubt any of the stories which were read, even though it wasn’t until the readings began in the New Testament

That I and other pupils were introduced to Jesus, even from the beginning of His story, I was totally enthralled with His character and words

In those simpler days, I was a true child of God, never doubting

But as I aged towards the teenager age, fleshly desires grew stronger and began to weaken my belief

Further on as the desires gained stronger hold, the enemy used others to spread his lies

One being that Jesus was gay since He only mixed with men including His disciples

This thought sidetracked me so well that I began to think I must also be gay too, adding yet another dark and perverted path for me to wander onto

This was well before the current “gender confusion” and the idea that you can choose and alter your own gender, whatever gender you may have been born

What I and others didn’t stop to think about, is the fact every child is the product of two parents, one male, and the other female, so it’s little wonder that we might feel a stronger attraction towards the opposite to which we were born

I like many others I invited excuses (Lies in disguise) “I’m only human, I need some pleasure in my life” “I’m not hurting anybody” “It’s my body, and nobody else’s business what I do” and many more other excuses

 

Gender Confusion?

Before I begin let me say I neither dislike or hate anyone who is of a gay persuasion, you may call me a bigot, just because I am old fashioned enough to believe in marriage only between a man & woman

There was no gender confusion when I was at school, boys were boys and girls were girls and both were in separate parts of the school

I doubt if any parent in those days would have allowed a boy to dress as a girl or girl as a boy, let alone encourage them to explore different genders

As one 7ear old boy was by his parents they even took him to a “Gay Parade” and boldly announced it on Facebook the fact he wore lipstick and dressed as a girl

To my amazement everyone complimented the parents for their supportive and modern- day attitude, nobody mentioned they thought a seven -year old boy was too young to decide on changing gender

Even the Pope recently denounced the idea of children have a right to decide what sex they desired to be

Going back to the gay parades the number of those involved has grown and is increasing.

Also, on the increase are “gay villages open to all confused genders, on top of this the government want to introduce “gender education” in schools as part of sex education for children as young as 4-5 dealing with homosexuality and oral sex acts

As mind boggling as this is, there is more!

Some school have already allowed drag queens to read different gender- based stories to young children, and parents who object to this and other sex education and refuse to allow their child to attend school and want to home-school them

Schools are adding insult to parents by threating to take them to court or demand parents must submit to investigation by a school governing body to check they come up to a school education level, which presuming means sex including gender education

Fireside Fellowship

Quite some time back the church we attended decided members should offer to host a family based worship, thus Fireside fellowships were born

Hosting these meeting is purely voluntary and in the past we have hosted several, however for assorted reasons which I won’t go into we had not offered to do any for quite a long time

Until last Tuesday night when we opened our home once again as hosts, as we have a smallish living room we could only offer to seat six other church members

Although only three members turned up, there was another who was coming had difficulty finding our home, so he went back to his house
As to the actual fellowship, we as hosts we were asked to pick a praise song we wanted sung as part of the meeting

My wife chose “Bind us together” which is her favourite, which we had all had to sing from memory as it wasn’t included in the edited booklet brought to our house

I chose “I surrend all” which recently found comfort in the words as well as release from my self-indulgence habit that had persisted for too many years

I had previously been listening to it being sung on a YouTube video, and the words tugged at my heart and pricked my conscious so strongly that night when I prayed and surrened all to Jesus even my own free will

 

 

 

Backslider

I write about my experience, as a Warning to others

Backslider

This is phrase you don’t hear about these days, not surprising when you consider the depths of depravity this world indulges in

I should know as I was more depraved than I would like to admit, even though I had recently surrendered all to Jesus, and was experiencing freedom far beyond description

This was after too many years of attempting to kick the habit which had by then turned into an addiction

Perhaps due to vanity or just weakness, I allowed myself to take control of my free will when I say “control” I ought to say Lack of control

I backslide and soon was overtaken by the addiction once again, it seems I had forgotten just how quickly you can get entangled and just how overpowering the effects on my mind were

My mind was quickly filled with demanding thoughts, leaving no room for any other thoughts, to the extent that I forgot everyday things I need to do

What little pleasure I gained was short lived and not satisfying at all, yet the urge to continue indulging became even stronger, snuffing out all of my creative thoughts

Leaving me unable to even start another story, until I confessed backsliding back into my porn addiction and knew that this needed to be my next story

Porn is the modern day updated version of Lust, porn poisons the mind filling it so completely, it leave no room and offers no release and certainly no freedom

Even if many may say they are exercising their free will, so they have found freedom, they as I are being deceived or lying to ourselves

Know this fellow Christians any addiction is really slavery binding us with stronger chains than can be imagined, I would rather be a servant to my savior

Than continue as a slave of addition and therefore sin!