I Surrender All

https://youtu.be/7x2IpLSfqp8 I Surrender All, a YouTube video I wanted to embed so that it would be included in my post
However WordPress does not seem to allow this anymore, basically because I use a Free membership, so WordPress promptly changes the ebeded video back into a link, however I still intend to write this post

I Surrender All, is one of my favorite Hymns which stuck firmly in my memory and I would often find myself humming it (humming is one of my bad and annoying habits)
But it wasn’t until recently that I came to know the truth of the words of that song

When I finally relinquished my control (poor control) over my addiction of far too many years, it wasn’t until and Surrendered EVERYTHING, that I began to benefit from the effects that this Hymn and the words sing about

The sense of freedom was wonderful beyond mere words can explain, as anyone who has tried to give up any kind of addiction will tell you just how impossible giving up their addiction can be

They will also tell you the longer you allow it to dominate your life, the harder it is to give up and that is certainly true in my case

What they may not tell you but I will, is how I made up excuses and reasons anything but admit I was addicted

As to the addiction I would prefer not to give into details, just to say it was sexual based, and started way back in my innocent youth

It was instigated by another boy who sat next to me at school, who seemed to know about sexual things, but I allowed it to continue ignoring his advances as best I could

Until one day he stopped in the same unannounced manner he had started, but by then I had become so accustomed to him taking advantage of my quiet nature

I found I could not remove the memory of his actions, and began fantasizing and indulging myself in very the same action he had done to me

My fist excuse “it was not my fault he had perverted me” so with that excuse I could continue where he left off

But as time went on I had to come up with other excuse, as my sexual appetite increased

Here are some of those excuses “I’m only human” “You have to have some pleasures in life, too boring otherwise” It’s not as if I’m hurting anyone”

But these were just lies, that allowed me to continue  and not face up to the fact I was addicted, which lead me into much darker places (practices)

One thing I had noticed the more power of the addiction grew the more it demanded, and the sense of loneliness as how could I explain to anyone until now

For now Jesus has been gratuitous enough to lift the burden of me, so that I am no longer addicted and even if I stray back into that dark place of self-indulgence

These two passages below came to my mind, but had to do a google search to find the actual passages and verse

Ephesians 4:22-24English Standard Version (ESV)

2 Corinthians
22 
to put off your old self,[a] which belongs to your former manner of life and is corrupt through deceitful desires,
23 and to be renewed in the spirit of your minds, 24 and to put on the new self, created after the likeness of God in true righteousness and holiness.

– Therefore if any man [be] in Christ, [he is] a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.

Putting off my old self is way over due, how about you?

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The weapons of the enemy

I know from personal experience, the more I give into my own weakness (temptation) the more power I freely give to the enemy

The enemy knows us and our weakness and will use ever one of them against us, to distract and deceive us

All too frequently he uses ourselves against ourselves, by manipulating our human emotions are turned against us

For once we give into our self-indulgences, we open the door of opportunity for evil to slither in with 

The enemy uses Lies are his the main weapon, Confusion to cloud the mind so we begin to doubt, he also uses poor imitations of gifts given by God

Such as lust which he disguised as free sex instead of love, the enemy invaded our minds into thinking that free sex was the new alternative to “love”

The big difference is sex, is self-centred and appeals to our vanity, this also gives us the so called freedom to include the same gender relationships.

He uses anger to take away our control of our temper, which spread like a bush fire from one person to another, engulfing anyone it touches

He also uses our bad habits and quickly turns them into addictions, at which point we become slaves rather than the free willed people God created us to be

How to tell bad habits from good ones, good habits take time and constant effort to maintain, whereas bad habits are way too easy to get into

But the devil to give up, and there is a hint in that phrase to who is driving force behind our bad habit

As with temper, any addictive bad habit can and do affect other people more than we might imagine

Not only infecting others in the same way a virus would spread, but also like ripples on water, growing larger as they spread

The enemy uses our prejudice against others who don’t look or talk the same, and through our own vanity allow ourselves to judge them inferior and we become self-righteous

So we can begin so called holy wars, claiming to have Gods approval

I Want to Know What Love is

This the title of a powerful pop song, and the ongoing chorus throughout the very dramatic video featured on YouTube

The song expresses through the singer the desire to discover a long lasting and meaningful relationship with a woman, to share and express human love

However wonderful human love within a relationship maybe, but human love is only a poor reflection of the love God gave for us

For within his sacrifice of his son, God tells you, “I love you completely and unconditionally” “My love for you has no limits”

Even though there parts of your life, even you dislike yourself and you  try desperately to ignore, there is nothing hidden from my sight even though  I can hardly bare to look upon them

Even so I have chosen to forgive even though you can’t forgive yourself, for I love and accept everything unique about you that make you the way you are

So come to me when you are weary or confused or frustrated, for I will never turn you away.

If you seek answers, come to me and ask, for I will answer you and give you want you need

Come to me when you are weary and drained by even the effort, for I will replenish you

You shall be my most prized possession, though you often lose your way I will guide you back home to me and welcome you with open arms

Then you will begin to experience the vast oceans of my power, and the depth of my love

For I am the way, and know the course which I marked out for you.

Though your heartaches I will embrace you and comfort you, showering you with my affections so that your heartaches will be remembered no more.

For you are so very precious to me, My Love. You are the tenderness affection of my heart.

When you need me most I am here ready to lift and carry you, for I will never leave you

 I AM what love is!

Note: Some of the sentences in this story come with permission from http://www.neilvermillion.com/tag/daily-prophetic/ I have altered them slightly to fit in with my story

Knowing Your Enemy

Knowing Your Enemy and You Own Weaknesses

This is more of a reminder that the enemy is real, not we should get to know him

Atheists often proclaim “The is no God” this also includes the farther of all lies the devil, as he is the god of this world, thankfully only temporary

Also know many other names, but his original name was Lucifer, but atheists would say that the devil was a fiction character made up by early churches to keep Christians in the darkness of religion

But if the devil does not exist, then why are there devoted followers and websites devoted to Satan, plus the great lengths he has gone to hide himself

While all the time spreading false information about God and His holy word, the Muslims depict Satan as a Gini or spirit creature and not as a fallen angel

But it seems the devil has taken matters into his own hands, for over many centuries he has allowed and probably encouraged false rumours to flourish

Even to the extent of people poking fun at him as if he was mischievous imp with no real power, but this was all part of his sneaky plan to make himself appear so ridiculous that people would then start thinking God was unreal too

Another thing about the enemy is he uses our own weaknesses against us, our anger – frustration and disappointments, and if he can stir us up enough turn love into hate

Blinding us so much we become our own worst enemy, whilst he come across as concerned and supportive friend, which is completely untrue

He takes advantage of our human nature, twisting everything to his advantage, constantly feeding us lies poisoning every thought so much we become incapable of sorting out what is true or false

Which leads to the need to put on the full armour of god on before we attempt to do battle, https://freedomborn.wordpress.com/ has more information about the full armour of god, I know about it but like many others know little of how to put it on

But also keeping the full armour , for the emery will trick you into removing it, with as many lies as it takes so he can then attack fully and begin to pervert your mind dragging you away from your faith

Humans the strangest of all my creations

Note: Put aside for a little while all differences of opinions beliefs or disbeliefs, and read this as if was a personal letter from a creator whoever or whatever you perceive to be

Note I am not claiming to be the creator’s messenger, but rather a creative writer, who longs for us all to become “one” again as we were in the beginning whatever you perceive that to be

 

Out of creation with its vast complexity, beauty and individuality, humans have proved to be strangest of all my creations

Even though I created them a little lower than the angels in their abilities, proving to be both a blessing and frustration

For they have taken what I gave of myself, creativeness – intelligence – compassion the ability to love and most of all free will

While a few have done great things and have sacrificed much in the surface of all humanity, others have taken everything I have given them and have twisted it beyond all recognition

Turning love into hate, creativeness into destruction and turning intelligence into of self-righteousness completely turning away from me and denying my existence

Even those who profess to know the truth of my words, are guilty of alteration of the truth that I gave to all humanity so that they would have one true set of instructions to guide them

They took my instructions and interpreted them each into their own language, all changing the words as their language developed, steadfastly clinking onto the and version of my words building it into a religion that I never meant them to have

Still other humans allowed their intelligence to dominate their thinking and put aside all traces of belief to replace belief with scientific investigation, only accepting the things they could prove with the facts or at least what they thought to be facts

Coming up with theories and then setting out to prove they were right from, even to the extent of altering or tampering with evidence in order to keep the theory intact

Refusing to allow any possibility that they ignoring belief, they deny any possibility of the full truth

Still other humans who claimed to seek after my truth, allowed many things to cloud their judgment many things to distract them and their own personalities to dictate the words which they later would claim to be mine

While there is some truth in the words that they have written, there are far from dead complete truth, for if they knew the falls knowledge of the truth it would destroy the are still feeble minds

My heart aches, I yearn for them all to come back to me as the children they were once with loving hearts and open minds and the willingness to listen to my words once more

For they can never know my utter sorrow that they cause by the rebellion against me, or comprehend the depth of the wounds I suffer when they deny me

For I am still your loving father, who longs to teach you, and who still loves you and wants to protect you from the harm that you often inflict upon yourselves I plead with you to seek me out with a heart and mind of the child so that you may know my truth, not for my sake I plead with you but rather for your own, so that you may know peace and fullness in your own life

It is time all people put aside their differences and unite as the on species “Humans”

Your loving creator